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I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray to far from the side walk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And its not too long before you point it out
I can not cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray to far from the side walk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
you should've known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain
and now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray to far from the side walk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because its empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you
 

自予进组以来，多人离去。堂杜、老刘、老石、小董、老赵、于老师、芮老师、阿哲、小洋、秀秀、老黄，等众兄弟纷纷毕业，衣锦还乡。昨日，湘湘宴请众人，名曰小聚，实为饯行。诚然，师兄师姐离组，定要抑郁些许时日，然他日难得相见，率众热闹、八卦、打牌、砸坑儿等亦难得。但独此次，湘湘之离去，吾内心波澜起伏，便似有亲远足，他乡多磨难，不知何日再见，感集而悲者矣。
吾本无心化学，毕业于南大，苟全名声于化院，不求闻达于业内。湘湘不以吾卑鄙，顾予于清华圆，咨予以化学之事，犹是感激。与湘湘共事一载，同窗苦读，名为同辈，实为师徒。闲暇之余，聆湘湘教诲，如沐春风，如鱼得水，如食山珍海味，回味无穷。吾进组之时，适逢多人离组，受命于危难之间，此诚组内危急存亡之秋也。幸得湘湘向助，度此难关，丰功伟绩，难以目数。予乃草莽，上不知天文，下不晓地理，诸事不明。蒙湘湘不弃，授予以为人处事之道，小则缜密，大则豁达。一年之中，收获无数，心情爽朗，一碧万顷，生科楼内，爪蟾游泳。岸芷汀兰，郁郁青青。而或长烟一空，浩月千里。浮光跃金，静影沉璧。组会讨论，此乐何极。得湘湘与左右，心旷神怡，宠辱偕忘，把酒临风，其喜洋洋者矣。
夫湘湘离去，得知此讯，犹如晴天霹雳，予之状态似熊猫不喂之以竹，猛虎不饲之以肉。茶饭不思，无心睡眠，心似霪雨霏霏，连月不开，阴风怒号，浊浪排空，日星隐耀，山岳潜形，商旅不行，樯倾楫摧，薄暮冥冥，虎啸猿啼。满目萧然，悲从中来。他日不知何时再见湘湘，虽处不同国度，但共一轮明月。思念之时，仰望明月，湘湘若隐若现，知姊于他乡一切安好，予心亦平静如水。然此时思念之情，溢于言表，谨以此文以寄托，临之涕零，不知所云。

 

 

昨天博子从美国回来了，叫了一帮高中同学。萌萌、大冰、赵楠、Nancy、老大、赵萍、臧可佳、王卓异、王佳宁、还好还有朱宝忠这个男的，要不然又要我一个男生领一帮女生的样子了。

大家聊天非常开心，有些同学真的5年没见了，大家都没啥大变化，这点很欣慰。

愚人节的时候，相似的场面，只是多了大建。昨天有人谈起来她，恍若隔世。

博子对我还真是关心，问长问短，还劝了我很久。真的谢谢她，但是她不了解我。她们都是好女孩儿，都很单纯，只是都不了解我的想法。

大建可能了解，在她面前我成了单纯的人，我无法了解她。但是希望她在国外一切都好。

聊天一直到了晚饭时分，然后大家匆匆合影，匆匆回去。我就直接去了另一个饭点儿。

苏老板要去香港了，她请客吃饭，我们都去捧场。大家都是无话不谈的好哥们儿，来自祖国各地，经过考研奋斗聚在一起，现在却要离开一个人，心里确实不忍。但是去香港也是很好的选择，换做是我也会这样选的。

苏老板当晚很漂亮，我们多次对视，她的眼神中也充满了留恋和无奈。只是没办法，我们也都很留恋她，只是没办法。

这次聊天到了晚上9点，十分有趣。来清华一年，能有苏老板这样的红颜知己，也是有福气了。这个老毛病实在难改，那就不改了吧。

连续吃了10个小时的饭，却没有任何满足感。我真的陷的太深么？

祝你生日快乐！

 

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